The Little Mans first hair cut..........

This weekend Haydn had a big weekend, he was baptized on sunday and had his very first hair cut by Grandpa Gary and he did fairly well with all of it, he got to spend time with both of his god parents, and mine a James' family had some time to mingle a bit, at first it was awkward but as time went on then blended quite well, we cant wait till the next family get together

My biggest Battle

Im gonna get a little personal today, and speak my mind about something i normally dont talk much about and thats my weight, ive always been a bit over weight, and i have always just been happy with myself i never have been ashamed of it until recently, after having Haydn i kinda let myself go a bit, i was so sick for so long i just gave up on trying to be healthy, well i have recently decided that thats not an option, i want to be alive for my sons life, and i want to be healthy, i wanna be that family that plays football in the front yard and i want my son to be proud of me not ashamed. My problems started early in life when i only had a brother, he took care of me fed me and raised me and i will forever be grateful to him for trying to make my life better than his, but his metabolism and mine were too different stories so when we lived off of hamburger helper and mac and cheese it caught up to me much more than him anyhow thats just the beginning and i want this to be the end of this never ending battle, i wish i could find a little bit more motivation through out the day, so i started taking vitamin b12 which is the natural vitamin for energy and metabolism today is the first day and i feel pretty good i hoping that this is something i can continue along with walking everyday i have been walking everyother day or every 2 days but i think that i am strong enough to keep myself  going every day instead of taking breaks, i have also slowly started your fitness for the xbox kinex, and i think once the water temp warms up when james is at work i am going to start swimming the lake, i hear swimming is an awesome activity and i enjoy it.


Today i am ending this craziness my family and my baby deserve better from me starting today i am going to try much hard than i have been, being a mom has definitly caught up with me i have become a person i dont like and i am hoping to change that very soon i want to be happy again!!

Thursday Night Fun Night

Since we have Haydn our world revolves around him as it should be, but we have learned that thats not all we should revolve around, for sometime we for got about us which is just as important to a family, our relationship took a backseat for a while and it just was no good, we fought on a daily basis our "you know what" life had gone down the drain and quite frankly we loved each other but we didnt exactly like each other, once we found out the problem we decided that we would make it a point once a week to do something "together", weather it was with Haydn or not so every thurday we have a special meal or go out even maybe see a movie but now that summer is here we play horse shoes on a league.....Red neck???      Yes but i have to admit its a blast, its something we can to that we have in common and to get us out of the house for cheap entertainment, now i have to tell you before i met James i never herd of such a thing.....".horse shoe league really, who does that" were my exact words but it just goes to show old time sports can be just as fun as new ones especially if there is a drink or two involve, so the point of this post is to take a minute to recognize your love even for just a second because with out him my life isnt possible, Go on a date night re light your candle for me and James when we started this Thursday Night Fun Night stuff we feel in love all over again talking laughing almost like it was when we first started dating, On Thursdays i even get butterflies

UMMMM...............YEAH............

So i recently had a job interview, weather i got the job or not we will see, called my references, so maybe thats a good thing but my ummmmm yeah moment of the day was terrible, as i have been considering the possibility working again i have started looking for some child care, where to start, i have herd so many horror stories its unreal and thats just from people in this town, i started the morning with a wonderful lady that was referred to me by my brother and sister in-law and she was amazing just on the phone i felt better about this whole experience, but yup she didnt have any openings for infants, so i proceeded to ask her if she would suggest anyone or warn me of others around (ummm yeah moment) she could refer me to one person and gave a list of at least 15 of day cares to stay away from for legit reasons to stay way, now if you ask me i think this world is sick, the last thing a person should have to worry about is how their child will be treated in a licensed day care if these people are leaving children out side in -30 weather and forgetting them when they walk there from school, having a sex offender in the house, locking children in bedrooms and committing daycare fraud what ever that is but it doesnt sound cool, my point is why in gods name should these people even be allowed to have their own children much less be legally able to care for multiple children at a time that dont belong to them.............this makes me sick i have no clue where to begin but this awesome person today sent me to a web site with a mile long check list of what to look for and it has given me much perspective on the child care world, i dont like it but its a start, my baby deserves the best and thats what he'll get and if not then i guess ill be a stay at home mom a little bit longer danger is not an option.  I love my baby who couldnt love that face

Rent vs Owning

As some of you may know James and I have begun the house hunt, we cant WAIT to get out of these trashy apartments that we move into every couple of years, we are SO SO excited to get into our own place, there are upsides to renting such as the land lord is responsible for everything for example i have a fridge full of food for all of my guests this weekend........fridge breaks.......he comes to fix it, yet i have to wait hours when if i owned i could go out and buy a refrigerator and be done, another point id like to make is playing outside, Haydn and I love playing outside, the up side you ask?? Well we have awesome neighbors, Haydn has made a little friend, Matthew the cutest 3 yr old ever, any how up side you dont have to mow the lawn, down side......the kids play in a field of grass almost taller that Haydn because the lawn doesnt get mowed!!! Now dont get me wrong we have a pretty awesome landlord but these few problems we have kinda make it frustrating,

Just a little treat for you................

Changing the Name Already!!!

Well, ladies and gents, its only my second day in the blogging world and i might already have to change my blogging name to "Diary of a Working MOM" yup thats right after 10 months of being a stay at home mom and preaching about the pros, and how its so much better for your children but recently i have found out that its actually a little rough on your children and their ability to socialize, Haydn James is the BIGGEST mommas boy i have ever seen, i can be walking half way across a room and and he goes into total freak out mode, so my solution to this was to find a class or two a week i could take him to, so he could socialize a bit, or i could find just a part time job to keep me busy, and find a day care that i trust and enjoy, Well, today at three pm i will be making that decision, to work or not to work that is the question, Me and James have weighed all the pros and cons and i guess we will see what they have to offer. So if any of you know of a good day care in the baxter area or wanna become a daycare for Haydn for a little extra for the week let me know, i am willing to pay, but i am insanely nervous about it.

Learning!!

Well, i have learned my son learns and copies everything!!! He start copying me when he learned how to get his diaper off, watching mom pull the little tabs looked fun, so he decided to try it one morning and well i found him finger painting the next morning he had poo everywhere, the second time this happened there was no poo but he decided he was gonna use his wet diaper as a pillow...yup a pillow and it stuck to his face, boy was that a fun morning i took pictures so when hes old i can show it to his girl friend and his children, i can only hope they do some of the things to him as he does to me, finger painting has been the high light so far and im sure thats not the end.

The copying continues.............Haydn has so many bath toys its ridiculous, so when we were athing him on easter night after a day of playing in the sand box with his cousins, i say " Haydn would you like your turtle or your crab" Haydn says, "tuddle" yes my sons first word was "tuddle" now if you know my fiance James he loves the " i like tuddles" video

so in his proud daddy moment he had me make his own Haydn "tuddle" video

Now Yesterday James and i were cleaning and listening to music while Haydn was playing quietly in his pack and play when Lady GaGa Poker face came on through Pandora Radio, James jokingly started to dance like a fool i might add and all of the sudden i hear Haydn scream i turn took look and see a Huge grin and a dancing baby, yes he was copying is father and, now i have a baby that danced to Poker face............gotta love my boys maybe ill get a video of him dancing soon

The Beginning of Something Great

This is the beginning of something great in my mind, i have read several blogs by friends and strangers and one thing i have learned is that in a blog people can speak whats on their mind and when people read they don't feel so bad about their thoughts feelings and plans because they have that "im not the only one" feeling.

Ill start out about telling you a little bit about myself, My name is Sheena, im from a small town in Minnesota and i have a beautiful little family that consists on my fiance James and the feature of this blog my son Mr. Haydn James and myself, and we have more love than a family of 10.

About 19 months ago mine and James' life took the largest turn we will probably ever be faced with, it started with an oopps, a little white stick and a Wal*mart bathroom, yes ladies and gentleman i said it, a wal*mart bathroom, i figured i had to pee why waste it right? WRONG not something you want to figure out in a Wal*mart bathroom, well im sure you've caught on this is how i found out i was pregnant, and the worst part i had to wait to get home to tell James, i could only imagine what would have happened to us if i would have told him while he was driving.So when we got home we had a talk and through tears and talk we made it through the night and with a plan, God had blessed us with a baby and we were gonna love him or her with all we had, James and i had been together for about 2 years but we weren't sure we were ready for such a big step but as most of you know you really don't have a choice. So through about 8 months of cravings, heart burn and late night tacos on July, 3rd 2010 We had a beautiful baby boy and named him Haydn James and weighed 9lbs 11 oz, yup he was big and no he didn't come out the right way so it only took 37 hours and a c- section but he was finally here and to our surprise parent hood fit us well, nightly feedings and many diapers later Haydn was sleeping through the night by 2 months, crawling by 5 months and picking him self up by 7 months, no teeth but TONS of personality, at 8 months he started getting in to EVERYTHING and at 10 months now hes trying to walk but not gracefully and can say turtle, yet this isn't just gonna be a blog about the mile stones my baby makes, but the goofy things you come across being a mom, and thoughts and questions i have i hope you check in often i am hoping to post at least once a day with videos and pictures and posts.